A terrible night in December...................
How ironic that difficult and challenging events in ones life happen without warning, with no way to prepare, rethink and take a different course. I've heard it said that success in life comes about through doing the right and the wrong, that EVERYTHING that happens however wonderful and terrible formed together creates the master template to LEARN about yourself and human life. I like most people have been on both sides, and I recgognize the wisdon of the saying. I have been guilty of disrespect and now find myself labeled as a TOXIC PERSON, it does not get any worse does it ? It has been said that as an intelligent, talented person, I have expected a certain whatever from life and have not recieved it, and therefore carry anger and suppressed rage (my words) toward and directed outward at people especially my family. I have to agree with this statement, and I find myself surprised and in a strange way relieved that it has been said and even impressed by those that say it. It seems they have hit a nerve, there is something to be said for using the events of your own life and others conclusions of it as therapy. It can save the cost of a shrink, who can and often are more screwed up than their patients. Doctor heal thyself. (I write from experience here!) But still having said this, and with true regret for my faults, I am more often than not complemented and seen as a sensitive, caring person by most people that have known me either professionally or personally, I have heard positive and glowing words spoken. But life is not so simple is it? Life takes it toll, ever more increasingly every year, and I find myself, having fallen between the cracks, forced to face the reality as I see it, even as others see my reality in their own way. I will say that I am sometimes surrounded by people who are ill equipped to understand the kind of person I am, and many don't seem to want to take the time needed to discover. Everyone is so busy and see to their own needs first, this is the modern condition of life today, its a sad world. I have devoted my life to bringing art and light to others and know what I'm here to do, I make the lives of other people better, always have, always will. I fight the demons of doubt and fear brought on by outside perceptions of me, I have fought rejection like millions of others, I have survived and believe
Its not over till its over
How ironic that difficult and challenging events in ones life happen without warning, with no way to prepare, rethink and take a different course. I've heard it said that success in life comes about through doing the right and the wrong, that EVERYTHING that happens however wonderful and terrible formed together creates the master template to LEARN about yourself and human life. I like most people have been on both sides, and I recgognize the wisdon of the saying. I have been guilty of disrespect and now find myself labeled as a TOXIC PERSON, it does not get any worse does it ? It has been said that as an intelligent, talented person, I have expected a certain whatever from life and have not recieved it, and therefore carry anger and suppressed rage (my words) toward and directed outward at people especially my family. I have to agree with this statement, and I find myself surprised and in a strange way relieved that it has been said and even impressed by those that say it. It seems they have hit a nerve, there is something to be said for using the events of your own life and others conclusions of it as therapy. It can save the cost of a shrink, who can and often are more screwed up than their patients. Doctor heal thyself. (I write from experience here!) But still having said this, and with true regret for my faults, I am more often than not complemented and seen as a sensitive, caring person by most people that have known me either professionally or personally, I have heard positive and glowing words spoken. But life is not so simple is it? Life takes it toll, ever more increasingly every year, and I find myself, having fallen between the cracks, forced to face the reality as I see it, even as others see my reality in their own way. I will say that I am sometimes surrounded by people who are ill equipped to understand the kind of person I am, and many don't seem to want to take the time needed to discover. Everyone is so busy and see to their own needs first, this is the modern condition of life today, its a sad world. I have devoted my life to bringing art and light to others and know what I'm here to do, I make the lives of other people better, always have, always will. I fight the demons of doubt and fear brought on by outside perceptions of me, I have fought rejection like millions of others, I have survived and believe
Its not over till its over
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